aqua,
i really do sympathise with you mate and i mean that but you finished your course in the middle of dec 09. its only the 11th jan and in between that we've had the christmas hols, siberian snow storms...add to that a struggling economy??
sometimes its the easy option to blame. theres people who really are having a bad time of it as we speak. sometimes hard times reveal things that you didnt think were possible, theres a saying that
'desperation can reveal inspiration, cheesey yes, but anybody who's made a success of their lives has to go through hard times...
i bet if you asked all the people on here, they would tell you the same..hard times can make you or break you...come on mate, forget about what the training centres said or didnt say,,dig in there and i am sure you'll pull through this and look back in a few months at how it made you a better and stronger person...
anyway , you cant fail because you have a family behind you and everybody on here