My father just died ...

[DHTiling]

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[user123]

Oh..., I don't know how I am right now, exhausted more than anything but somehow too churned up to go to bed.

I have expected this phonecall since September, nerves on alert every time the phone rang, and now I know it has finally happened and somehow it's ok. My Dad didn't like life much, he was a bitter man, he's wanted to die for ages, this has been so so tough on my Mum who is so poorly, too, logic says it's all for the best. Emotionally I'm all over the place, no denying that, but there is also peace, and I just really like living, you know? I cherish it, I lost my twinbrother when we were 19, and I promised him I'd live for both of us, and that is just what has made me tick ever since. I know with all my joy of life there is pain, too, so we just have to take those times, don't we. I really do want him to rest in peace.

 

[The D]

So sorry for your loss

 

[Alan.P]

I think we all handle our grief in different ways, depending on the relationship with the deceased, as you have said, it wasn't the best relationship, I'm sure your head must be spinning, so many questions, all I can do is to say sorry, once again, not much I know.

 

[doug boardley]

G, my father was brought up in very austere fashion, your Pa in probably more so circumstances, it was a sign of the times I'm afraid and we have to let those feelings subside. I often think "wow, if only my dad had seen and done the things that I've had a chance to do", but even so, blood is thicker than water, and I find it very comforting that our final words together were happy ones.xx

 

[user123]

Alan, it's lovely you remember, it really is and I appreciate it. Spinning head, oh yes, but all the questions have been asked for years and will never be answered, so nothing new there. I think I need sleep now. Good night and God bless you all, thank you for being as real friends as the ones I have locally and strewn all over the world - to me it proves that mankind is basically good, not bad, that good thoughts really do good. You've all done me good today, much better than some phonecalls I've had, where repeating things is hard and kind of fruitlessly painful, too. THe thought of waking up tomorrow remembering doesn't thrill me one little bit, but hey ho, let's get that bit done, too. Thank you all again.

 

[suave]

oh dear! so sad!

 

[peckers]

very sorry to here the bad news for you G my thoughts and heart goes out to you at this sad time for you and your family.
my condonences steve..

 

[devonmark]

please accept my condolences, thoughts are with you at this sad time

 

[Pebbs]

Gisele, my friend, you know I am so very sad to hear this news. We spoke a lot about your father over the last few months, and shared the complexities of our fathers and how they can affect us. Dont you go beating yourself up about crying and the overwhelming grief you are going through. Allow yourself these moments of despair because they will come and go as sure as the tide comes in and out. Whatever your emotions and memories may be about your father, he was and will always be your daddy. You are a remarkable lady, and when you have your wobbly moments you will always have your lovely husband and friends to lean on and support you. Be kind to yourself, and know you are loved and cared about.

Lynn ***

 

[user123]

Hey Pebbs,
Thank you. It's 6:30 am now, that means you wrote this at around 3:30am!! Did you drive at night after all then? Have a lovely Christmas with your Mum, say hello to her from me, and tell her she's got a remarkable daughter. And have a right good break, too. I'll be ok. ***

 

[chris.tiling]

So sorry G. Imminent or not it is never a thing you want to happen. Thoughts are with you all x

 

[phil7677]

really sorry for your loss, my thoughts and best wishes go to you and your family

 

[aph257]

My sincere condolences.

 

[Deleted member 1779]

He died just 30 minutes ago, in Germany, at home, my Mum there. For those who knew it was imminent, thought I'd let you know, get it out the way somehow. I don't know what else to say....

Woohh so sorry to read that. Not sure what to say / type. Best wishes Gisela