Don't knock yourself Bri mate, just cut down a lot first and try quit again properly when you feel it's possible.
And well done Phil! I'm going to have to try to get some patches or gum, I'll bloody pay again like I did last time if I have to. It's bugging me to bits I'm not good at this. Having a bad cough is helping a lot, the thought of trying to inhale anything but fresh air makes me cough.